Dear Pawel,
These winds! I have felt unmoored and aimless, though unusually productive. It’s 4:33 in the morning. The spectacle of inauguration awaits with all the manifold threats of violence.
I’m writing because at some point, which I can no longer locate, I began to realize I was at work on an exhibition I affectionately refer to as Peter, Pawel, Paul and Mary. Bodhisattva Peter from the cooperative, your mythology, a sculptor I never knowingly met that passed away a few years ago and Mary with the greenhouse on the Mesa who grows orchids.
Peter writes and maintains trails, a leukocyte of sorts, not so busy at work on estimating an ideal value between 0 and 1 for whatever is at hand. He is a connoisseur of public transportation, redwood groves and Miyazaki films. He shares his insights generously in lyrical epistles, casual asides, children’s blocks and window displays made with props he finds in the plaza. He likes to claim he only keeps one song in him at a time, and I’m not sure that’s true. I have the impression that he patiently waits for what he needs to arrive at his oceans door. Of course these are simply my observations.
I’ve always loved your work and how it lives and changes, taking on new shades and valances. I can never quite remember the details. There is a theme of repetition with variation, which is the theme of life, no? I seem to remember that after a long stay at a European artist residency, an incensed administration demanded to know what you produced, and you offered that you may or may not have erased one of the lines on a Sol LeWitt drawing. I seem to remember some great feats of athleticism. Swimming to Alcatraz accompanied by a brass band playing in a boat. Something with Marina Abramovic, Michael Jordan, and a basketball hoop in a Church. An historic event you recreated that involved shooting a gun on a roof on a certain time of a certain day. A hotel room in Cairo and something to do with James Lee Byers. Muscular youthful works and how we tend to subdue and diffuse over time. I hear coyotes howling as I write this. I loved your staging of a Tadeusz Kantor happening with Stephen conducting the ocean and some other significant correlates; boys on motorbikes, girls on horseback, newspaper planting, a recreation of a famous painting made with driftwood, family and a skinny greyhound. You asked me to read something into a bullhorn, it was windy, I can’t recall what it said. I still have the postcard you sent me afterwards, it’s somewhere framed in storage. I remember going to the farmstand and seeing a neat horizon of drawings made from single hairs from your daughter’s head. The titles repeating with slight variations, a music stand with someone’s poem on it.
After Paul died I started hearing his name. I went to the library to print out a draft of something and each time Jane tried to print it for me, a picture of Paul would come out in its place. I began acquainting myself with his work. Big playful things that made me feel like a child in their presence. I helped his wife prepare some pieces to go to a storage in New Mexico. His studio was beautiful and I wanted to turn it into an unusual kind of museum. I remember tender drawings of the young men he shared rooms with on a military ship. I remember these great voluminous hanging sculptures. I remember the feeling that a force from beyond the language I have to articulate it was at work, intervening in my rhythms. I remember this funny realization that leaving a body doesn’t mean enlightenment and as though it’s from the thralls and inertias of so many fleeting desires that we emerge.
Every year Mary opens her greenhouse once or twice. These occasions are always wonderful, with a softly lit stream of familiar faces, the hum of voice, the warmth of life given in conditions of fascination and attention. Is art not the insistence on the conditions for its flourishing? In and against what Susan Howe describes as the immense indifference of history and the crushing hold of memories abiding present. I’d like to invite Suzanne to give a concert on her Buchla. Perhaps she could compose something over a season with the plants and Mary. I imagine an afternoon concert, all of us there with our kin.
I suppose we could call this [plants, proteins, leukocytes, trails, asides, synthesizers, driftwood, music stands, greyhounds, follicles, rhythms, winds] Peter, Pawel, Paul and Mary (Suzanne, Susan, Miyazaki, Lucrecia, Tadeusz, Buchla, Sol and Perry, et al., et al.)
I’ll write these names in one space so that it gradually forms a gradation of darkness. Lucrecia Martel thinks this is a better epistemological metaphor than light, so that we can grope our way without the smugness of those that see.